Noelle Mikazuki

Noelle Mikazuki

The Awesome One

Dec 31, 2019

2019: Year Of Growth

I know I barely update this blog anymore, but I guess this "tradition" of doing a yearly summary post + new year resolution post serves me well - I get to see how I slowly grow through the years, the good and bad times I've had, reminding myself to appreciate the blessings once again and to see myself change whilst I learn from my past mistakes.

2019.

It passed way too quickly.

I'm not sure if I would say that it was a bad year or a good one, but I'm pretty certain I've had more good times in the 2nd half the year that is enough to cover up the horrible start of 2019.

And among my resolutions set for 2019, 
(let's recap-)


1. Familiarize myself with minor& sharp/flat chords on the guitar
2. Get a bike/diving license
3. Release a song with proper arrangements
4. Mini performance overseas (with le band)
5. More covers
6. Get more rest
7. Start working out/dance?
8. Have more time for myself to relax
9. Massive printing of photos to hardcopy
10. Travel lesser, but further

I guess I've only managed to complete 2, and probably 6&8 in the last month of the year.
It's been a year of getting lost and stumbling my way through, and hence, a year of growth.




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I guess it's the first time ever that I've withdrawn myself from social media for a few months during the start of 2019. Not surfing Facebook/Instagram/even replying texts. And throughout the year of 2019, I've been using way lesser of social media & connecting with people. I'm sorry if I was irresponsible to do so, but I needed the space. I needed it.

Many horrible things happened, but through it all, I've learnt what I needed to.

1. Forgiveness. 
When people do harm to me and hurt me intentionally, instead of wishing for the worst karma to strike them, I feel happy (sincerely) for them to have found peace within themselves and be happy with their lives.

2. Self-Control.
 I learnt to control how I feel and think when I can't do anything to change my situation. I always bear in mind - I can't control nor change others' actions nor thinking, but I can control and change mine.

3. "Let it Be". 
I learnt to "let it be" - it may be 3 simple words, but it was harder to do than say. I learnt to loosen myself up instead of worrying too much over many situations. To try my best in everything and accept the results as it is.

4. Self Improvement.
 I guess this is the year I've read the most books - both on marketing related and about life. Improving my thoughts, being in a better mental state and being positive, making myself better for me. 

5. Perception. 
I might think I know people (or vice versa of people thinking they know me), but what we perceive are based on what we as individuals think or choose to believe. Yet, it might not be entirely right or true. 

6. Happiness. 
I stopped chasing after what I think would make me happy. Instead, I stopped and appreciate the little things that has always been making me happy. I cut off connections I didn't want to, that were the causes of negative emotions. 

7. Gratitude. 
Whether good or bad, I'm glad whatever happened in 2019 (or in the past) happened. This made me who I am today. I wouldn't specifically thank those to hurt me because it'll be stupid to thank someone who inflicted pain in you. But I'd especially like to thank the people who stood by me and watch me grow. 

8. Privacy.
I guess I was into blogging since I was 13 or 14? - in short, when I was really young. I grew up ranting to the internet and somehow it became a habit for me. Yet this in the recent years, especially this year, I've kept many things to myself because I can't talk about the shit that happened. I've learned to hold it in, and slowly let go. 

9. Spreading Positivity.
At least for my public accounts, I've started the habit since the start of the year to not post anything negative or anything that would worry you guys about me. Like how I want my music to help people going through tough times like me, I'm need to do so on normal days too.




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Also, I'd like to note these highlights of 2019 down on my blog too:


1. 


I joined a competition with le band mates "bandnextdoor" and we got into the finals! Though we didn't win, it was surely one experience in life I'd like to remember.


2.


I've gotten my open water diver certification after umpteenth time of saying that I want to get it and despite my fear for water/sea!! Thank you to M too, for going through this with me even though he already has the certification.


3. 



I've had the FIRST ever road trip in my life (excluding Malaysia). M & I actually had a round-Taiwan road trip where we went to 8 different cities in Taiwan and stayed in 7 different accommodations (crazy right?!). It was fun but a tad bit tiring cause we gotta check out at 11 or 12 everyday - which means we gotta wake up at 10-11AM for the whole trip. Defo was more tiring for M cause he's been the driver & motorist for 99.99% of the trip. It was a great experience though, and I'm looking forward to more road trips in other parts of the world!


4. 


I've actually started gigging - SOLO. It's quite a thing for me because I've always done gigs with someone else playing the instruments along with me and someone sharing the stage with me so that they can 讲冷笑话 with me so that I don't end up being too awkward. But I'm glad I had the chance this year to take up a solo regular!


5. 


I've found someone that I can be completely retarded with (he beats me to it most of the time :p). I'm not so much of a mushy wordy person but I'm glad you came into my life and made my 2019 such a great one.




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Moving forward to 20X2, I'm actually expecting bigger changes in life that I myself am uncertain about. But I'm definitely more excited than worried about what the future holds :)

So, down to my
Resolutions for 20X2

1. Healthier Lifestyle: Sleeping habits + Workout routines
2. Better Time Management & Self Discipline
3. Bike License?
4. More Covers/Recording of Originals
5. Career Progression

I honestly can't think of 10. Because these 5 are enough to keep me busy for next year and its what I really want to achieve so I would stay focused on these 5 instead of setting too many and end up not achieving them. 




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OK, today is officially the last day I'm gonna sleep at such wee hours so..

GOODNIGHT & GOODMORNING
for the last time!












Dec 17, 2018

2018: The Most YOLO Year Of My Life...Yet?



And...it's the time of the year again!!

I actually think that this is the only post I'm actively & enthusiastically drafting every year. Probably cause it gives me a summary and closure of the year and prepares me for the next - also, keeping tabs on my yearly resolution!

SO..How was 2018?

HMMMMMMMM.
I'm actually not sure how to feel about this, but 2018 has gone past too soon. It feels as if time pass faster when I'm older? But there's also a theory behind this where, when you're young, you got more time to spend, comparatively when you're at adulthood stage, you work 9 hours a day and only have that little extra time to spend and make it worth.

But if I had to summarize, I guess 2018 could be titled as the most YOLO year of my life(?)


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Let's see how my resolutions set for 2018 went..

1. Catch falling snow! - Nope..Didn't had the luxury to experience this :(

2. Travel to somewhere new - YES, Bali!! & Hatyai! Though it's somewhere nearby, it was a new place!



3. Blog more (As usual..hurhurhur) - Obviously no LOL!!
4. Save up & probably commit to some savings/investment plan - I did start saving a tad bit more and started on investment plans so..YES!
5. Have sufficient rest everyday (Aka. Rest early) - No, no, no, no, no. I JUST DONT HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO SPARE :(

6. Sing & play the guitar & keys more - YES!! I actually started off streaming on 浪live & I sing with my guitar & keyboard there so I'm really glad I'm able to realize this resolution! Just a short snippet of the recent mini 彈唱 cover on my IG -



7. Spend more time with my family (Niece especially) - Half I guess? But I did spend more time with family and friends comparatively to 2017!
8. DECORATE MY OWN ROOM/HOME STUDIO :))) - MY ROOM IS NOT VACANT FOR ME TO SHIFT IN YET SO NO :( SADDEST FAILED RESOLUTION :(

That's like 50%?? HAHAHAHAHA. Not ideal but well..not too bad either!

But well, 2018 has been pretty busy, yet fulfilling for me. I've found a new job which I pretty much enjoy - taking up 200h/mth, I've also my side line streaming that takes up 30-40h/mth, adhoc jamming & gigs, traveling..so..it's been pretty tight on time for me, so much so that by the end of 2018 (now), I feel so mentally and physically drained that I start to let loose my schedules just to let myself slow down and enjoy me time a little.


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Well..other than my resolutions, I did "achieve" certain goals/bucket list items!!

1. DNA Meet Up in TW 



I had my first mini gathering in TW!! I actually held it with Evalee so that we'd both not feel so scared/worried!! Haha, and boy am I glad it went well! I'm also really thankful for those who traveled up North Taiwan just to see me :')

Side note, we don't really call it #DNA for the overseas audience so it might come across weird to call it DNA outing HAHAHA. But yeah, the next gathering would be in Jan & I'm really excited cause a few SG DNA are coming along to join the TW gathering! It's gonna be really fun!!! (Hereby open-jio to DNA who wanna join us for our TW outing in Jan)


2. Joined a TW singing competition 

I think only a handful of you would know that I was the top 300 selected amongst thousands to compete in this TV show singing competition organized by 浪live called 聲林之王, but sadly, I didn't manage to get pass to the TV round - top 30 if I'm not wrong.

BUT, it was hell of an experience to be able to witness LIVE overseas competition TV recording. To see foreign talents, to listen to new kind of music. It was eye opening and enlightening! It was also my craziest, most YOLO moment in life ever. I received the email that I was selected on Friday, and the 2nd audition was on Sunday. I literally booked the flight upon receiving the email and flew that very Friday midnight!! It was insane. During the trip, I also made new friends, jammed with new talents. I didn't take much/any pictures because it was a really abrupt 4D3N trip, with 1 whole entire day stuck in the recording studio feeling hungry and nervous. Yet, this has gotta be the most memorable trip to Taiwan.


3. Travelled with my buddies 

After YEARS of talking about it, me & my poly time buddies FINALLY TRAVELLED TOGETHER! We were initially planning for a roadtrip in Aussie but it never happened because a long trip would mean our timing had to fit each other. So anyway, we went to Thailand, Hatyai. Yet again another new place for me!!


I was really thankful that SY did all the planning, from the hotel we stay, to the places we go/eat/shop/sightsee, and I absolutely loved everything that was planned!


The experience was also really unforgettable because..we got stalked by a pickpocket!! All the way from the night market, till somewhere near our hotel. It was pure madness, and we were not wearing flashy clothings nor jewelries nor do we look rich at all LOL! It was really frightening, after all, we're 3 girls traveling without any weapons in our bags. Thank God we're pretty aware of our surrounding and we spotted him pretty soon when he tried to pickpocket us for the first time, and knew he was following us.


4. Singing & Playing 

As I've mentioned earlier on, I've actually started live streaming on 浪live since May this year and ever since, I've been playing the keys/guitar as I sing online! It was tough in the beginning - to multitask and still stay on pitch or keep the emotions. But it got better along the months (I think?) LOL!

I also got to perform with my band as a keyboardist X vocalist in our gigs, so..I guess that's a great breakthrough for me cause I've never been able/confident enough to do that. P.S. Do check out our latest Christmas medley recorded LIVE (no editing no nothing, just us, raw).




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So now that we're done summarizing 2018,
Here are my resolutions for 2019!!

1. Familiarize myself with minor& sharp/flat chords on the guitar
2. Get a bike/diving license
3. Release a song with proper arrangements
4. Mini performance overseas (with le band)
5. More covers
6. Get more rest
7. Start working out/dance?
8. Have more time for myself to relax
9. Massive printing of photos to hardcopy
10. Travel lesser, but further



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I can't wait for 2019 already.
Though I wish I could stop time & stop aging..LOL!

See you in 2019!